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February 27, 2008
right now
honestly, right now i am more than a bit overwhelmed by all of the responsibilities before me. having our fourth little guy has added so much more: more smiles, more drool, more sleepless nights, more insecurity, more work, more work, more work. i used to be able to set household chores aside for some time to knit, read, or even just think but now find myself so incredibly far behind in absolutely everything. what makes all of this so much worse is that my two older guys seem to be very aware of my shortcomings and share them with me often.
i am also trying to stay on track with an elimination diet that i have been on for two weeks. not being able to turn to food as a reward or for comfort has been rough. i was hoping that taking so many possible allergens out of my diet would boost my energy, eliminate some of the body pain, clear the brain fog, ease the depression, help with sleep, and force me to deal with some of the issues that cause me to run to food. this really feels like a lot, and i often think that i am not up to the challenge. i have done really well over the last couple of weeks and am hoping that some of the changes that i am making now will be lasting.
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Good job on the elimination diet! I know that must be super hard -- it would be for me. It has got to feel so good to have started it though, and already have two weeks under your belt.
I missed seeing you last night and this morning. Hope to see you soon.
Posted by: Amy at February 27, 2008 12:53 PM
woohoo! i am super glad you are where you are at, in your place, representing and all. i'm glad for you openess and i am glad that i have friends like you who teaches me about parenting and household chores and the balancing act. spending just a little bit of time with you fills me up. i will continue to pray that you will be healed from head toe! love ya:)
Posted by: cat at February 27, 2008 01:31 PM
hey amber....it sounds like you have a lot going on, but you are so strong...you have to be to be so open about what is going on in your life. thanks for that. i know this sounds weird, but it always help to know that you are not the only one dealing with stuff and feeling like you are overwhelmed. you are an amazing mom, wife, and friend. we will get together soon. we'll be praying for you. let us know if there is anything else that we can do.
Posted by: erin at February 27, 2008 03:17 PM
It's frustrating to no end to have to think about all the dishes in the sink when all you want to do is kick back and try something new, make something. It's something I cringe to lose and if it's gone for too long I find I'm praying for time to make stuff. I figure God made me this way and it's worth taking time away from whatever to fill that hole.
I think you're super strong to keep up with your diet and I believe you will keep it up. Your attitude is so chipper! Let me know if you need a kick in the pants to remind you why to keep with it.
Posted by: katiek at February 27, 2008 11:56 PM
I'm always amazed at how much you get done Amber, even if you do feel behind all the time. I'm behind and I only have two pairs of little eyes following me around all the time.
Oddly enough, I'm on an elimination diet too. The dr. thinks food allergies might be causing Mahala's colic and sleeplessness, so I'm eating a diet of rice, range-fed turkey, zucchini and pears for at least two weeks to see if it helps before slowly adding foods back in . . . like you said, it's harder than you might think! I find myself wandering around midmorning or midafternoon really craving a snack, and i think it's more habit/comfort rather than hunger. Good luck keeping it up--I know you can do it, though it's not easy.
Can't wait to see you in a couple of weeks!
Posted by: Laurie at February 28, 2008 02:23 PM
